I knew what I signed up for when I enrolled here at Valparaiso University, and I have accepted opportunities that I would absolutely do again, if I had to redo my whole college experience. I am heavily involved on campus, as a student leader for the Asian American and Pacific Islander Coalition (AAPIC) and with the St. Teresa’s student community as well. I am a student who studies and practices class materials to achieve good grades and I strive to always do my best in school or in social settings.
I am going to be honest, sometimes I feel like I can never get a break or a chance to really “breathe.” Not to say that I am complaining about my college experience, I am grateful for all of my opportunities here on campus, but at the end of most weekdays I feel exhausted. On weekends, all I want to do is sleep it away, and during my extended breaks I am so burned out from school that I sleep 16 or more hours a day just to recoup from the school term.
Now, I know what one may think: “Maggie, are you getting eight hours of sleep?” Yes I am, which I am very fortunate to get as a college student. I do get the recommended eight hours of sleep everyday, and yet I am still tired throughout the typical school day. I drink caffeinated drinks (yes, multiple drinks) to get me through the day, without falling asleep in each of my classes.
This year for me has been just as equally exhausting as last school year, despite last year being extremely expedited. Last school year I was “going, going, going, going” non-stop and this year is normally spread out with the usual breaks. How come I am just as tired this year as I was last year? Well, for starters, this is my last year of undergraduate school and I wanted to make the most of it and get the full experience before I graduate to the Physician Assistant Program here at Valparaiso University.
As midterms are approaching us, I feel that I have filled my plate up too much. But everytime I take one step back to observe all the work I have done for myself and for others, I feel the need to keep doing what I am doing. I am not sure if that feeling of wanting to chase all the things I want to achieve as an undergraduate is being passionate or being overzealous. Nonetheless, I am fulfilled, maybe over-fulfilled, because at the end of the day I appreciate the work I have done, but I am so exhausted most of the time.
Moreover, as a first generation college student, I felt the need to have a strong presence on campus with my heritage and with my voice. I had the drive to push myself to lead others and to be part of causes and organizations that contributed to the greater good of Valparaiso’s community. I am at the verge of taking that too far. They say a healthy portion of everything is a good thing. I may have overtook my fill.
The views expressed are those of the writer and do not necessarily reflect those of The Torch.